Understanding Our Own Stories

In listening to a great conversation between C de Vos and Ken Wilber (IN, Dec 07) yesterday, I was struck by how we/I don't know how to integrate/see our own breakdown/through stories even years after they have occurred.  I've become bored with my own dramatic telling of these high points, even as I acknowledge their enduring importance.  Listening to Cory's story of a breakthrough at 19, I immediately recalled my own version from that time: pregnancy, a hasty brief marriage, a wrenching realization that the Catholic church of my youth had no place for me, gender-based employment restrictions, a desperate return to university life for air to breathe, and a grateful fall into feminism where anger was good, and some sort of structure/encouragement existed for exploring self in society.  This was late 60's, early 70's.

Listening to Ken recast portions of Cory's story as emergence into green say, or teal or turquoise was helpful.  Another layer of understanding goes down, taking AQAL from the text book to a gut level knowing.  Also his comment about structure lagging behind the initial exposure to the new perspective - this helps me understand why I spent years seemingly stagnating, but really becoming ready to bust through to a new place when divorce banished me from my comfort zone.

Thank you both.