Looking to connect with some Integral Young Adults!

like years ago you posting something dumb about 'sex being the new masturbation' and some dude with white hair in his profile pic replying about how it is SO OFFENSIVE THAT YOU WOULD POST SOMETHING LEWD ON THE INTERNET.  That really did leave a mark on me.  The first time I felt a little out of place here...

But as well I don't feel fully expressed with most of my real life peers.  Le sigh.

I mean at the same time I don't post because I'm afraid to put myself out there and cause there's so many different personalities in here trying to get attention and this is all public domain (as in type my name in google and I bet this post will come up and I feel like I'm broadcasting to the world that I'm in to some weird shit and possibly alienating a lot of people I am close to--college friends, co-workers, family members, "green" friends, etc), so a pretty strong ego-protector personality keeps guard (sleep deprivation seems to lessen the burden in this moment..)