Too much to discuss here!! Wow!!
Thank you, Ken!!
I'm having trouble even starting. I can't find a place to start!! LOL
I guess I'll start with where my awareness seems to be pinned at the moment, like a piece of paper to a child's shirt that says, "please remind me to get to the bus stop at 3:30 sharp!"
I'm not sure how much of the 3-2-1 work was gleaned from Ken's own psyche. I suspect that it may at least partly be his guess at some of the most common snares for folks. Either way, it would explain why he behaves the way he does around some issues. For instance:
His obsession with kvetching about "acceptjesuschristasyourpersonallordandsaviororburnforeternityinhell" is easily spotted here as a bypass over Blue. He didn't really find Blue at all nor integrate it. He found one phrase, called it Red and moved on, stepping on it's face on the way out. I thot we couldn't skip levels...
And so I thot about this and how it sometimes seems to me that I "skipped" over Orange. I can't spend any time in the Voice of Orange - in the Shadowy form that I imagine it. It is just too alien. I CANNOT figure out how it's good to compete and win and leave someone else's potentially valuable contribution in such ruins that they have to scrap it all in one heap. Who would feel good or even okay doing this? I just can't feel into that. It remains an "It" to me.
So, as he moved on to Orange and Green, he didn't really have Authentic Voices for Anti-Orange or Green. They were unintuitive guesses at best. Clearly Orange was his preferred 1st Tier base of operations and it was still in daily skirmishes with Green. Is this his guess at our trouble spots? Shirley, you must be joking.
What's wrong with this picture?
Actually, nothing. It's totally normal. We all do this. And our fearless leader is no different. Except that as he does it, he is still Radiant. Who is it who achieves when he succeeds at sucking at something? Him or Me?
Anne's current post about accomplishing something if we add to one another's work instead of trashing it is pointing directly at this as well. I know that I would be able to add to his work. And he definitely adds to mine. But this is done in a very unconnected way. He and I have no spoken to each other, and while I am familiar with some of his work, he is not familiar with mine - that I know of. And we have not established any Mode of Discourse (much less a positive one) between the two of us about any of this. I have done my share of kvetching about his kvetching. But this is a one way communication as far as I can tell. The connectivity is limited. Intentionally.
What if it wasn't? What if we had access to one another's view at all times so that we were always able to see things from other people's perspective in real time? I don't think we would have the luxury of kvetching any longer. And wouldn't that be interesting?
So, one of the most beautiful and sweet tasting things I got out of this was the desire to drop my Orange allergy. I've had enuf. It's getting in my way of helping people who can't see past its radiance to bring it to a stopping place. Agentic Integral is preferencing Orange without enuf discernment about what needs to be transcended. Communal Integral is preferencing Green without enuf discernment about what needs to be transcended. And the two can't communicate. It's jamming the signal for the next Stage of Evolution in our midst. I'm tired of the whole thing.
Besides, the Dominant Mode of Discourse in American culture, and therefore the world as it idealizes America, will soon be Green and the Orange Integrals are going to be paralyzed and handicapped by kvetching if they don't accept some help. Like it or not, the world is moving that way. It's right on schedule.
Another sweet thing I got from this audio was the peek into 3rd Tier and it being MUCH closer and more recognizable than I thot!! I saw this years ago as a suspicion and was criticized for it and I'm so happy that it doesn't look like some foreign and unthinkable nightmare! I have not attained it, and may not in this lifetime, but I see it now. And I'm so happy!!
I feel so deeply into the lower energies that I almost feel like a storm cloud hovering over the landscape and seeing every square foot of the deeply cut terrain down below. Once in a while the pressure to rise upwards is overcome by an attraction to the ground and my energy is sucked down to the base with more force than any living thing can withstand - enuf force and power to unmake the elements - and I feel broken. But it is only a moment of energy release and then it is over. I can keep moving. It is a dance between the earth and me, between matter and spirit. I rise above it and it yanks me back down and shows me who's boss. LOL It is not my enemy. It is my Self, refusing to be left behind. It taunts me, draws my fire. I strike it deeply, but it is totally unfazed. Who is stronger? The one who hits? Or the one who can take the hit? It laughs at the release of energy and devours it greedily. What should I feel? Resentful? How can I? How can I?!
I'm so grateful to Ken.
