I long for someone...

I just read  the text written by Corey W. deVos belonging to the Divine Pride videos. This brings tears into my eyes.

I can feel it. I can feel that this speaks to the highest parts of myself, this reaches my egde. This feels so naturally right, just like my whole being is longing to live like that.

I feel like I am ripped apart by the conflict that comes with this. On the one hand this is really changing my life. There are these great new realms of awareness that have literally been unimaginable just a few years ago. Sometimes it is almost like I recognize my kognition growing. I am seeing the world through different eyes and I am aware of this tranformation more than ever before in my life.

On the other hand it is like this change has only been on the inside. I see other structures, I love things or people for reasons that just did not exist in my life before. And although there have also been changes on the outside the strength or the energy behind the outer changes does not even come close to the inner ones.

I often wish I had someone in my life who can see this. You have too understand that consciousness itself evolves, too understand that we "consist of" all the steps that evolution has made up to your "individual edge". In any single action I take I am a vessel for evolution. I am really am evolution! Recognizing this makes me understand my connection to the kosmos, while the biggest part of the kosmos cannot.

I wish I could show this to more people. Several times in my life it was just like I was "pulled up" by others and i hope I can give back some of this to the world. My benefit and that of others are one in this.

The first time that I tried to express this in english. I am exhausted but it feels good.

Be God and be proud!