"Where 'It' was there shall 'I' become"

It still amazes me that I remained doing my meditation practice during those first few years back some thirty years ago. The reason is just what Ken and Terry dialogue here; my repressed lies kept arising, only my awareness couldn't understand. I was in my head, so to speak, and far removed from any embodiment of my authentic owning of any real emotions. For me, fear was the biggie. I feared my own voice and shadow danced this fear in two ways; my own anger had, for so long, been so dis-owned due to growing up as a child and being unable to show anger, and my power always was given over to an idealized other, not believing myself worthy to be powerful and heard.

My heart is so grateful to so many who helped me to step into my authentic Self, who IAM. And, slowly through many many years of practice, combined with shadow work, my liberation helped me to fully take ownership. Today my life is lived through my Soul, who I am, in a loving and joyful energy; but my awareness, being and heart knows that the human element, of my ego personality, is always there and can easily slip back into side-stepping the anger or empowerment, as it was an engrained pattern for long in my life. It is something my practice now really brings light too; I'm more able to work with these energies at the time they arise and move into my 'I' for ownership.

Thanks Ken and Terry,

With love,

Mary Linda