Choosing to actually commit to an ILP that I create.

I believe grasping the difference between these two energies of your own being, as well as how these two energies manifest in psychological development, and socio-historical development of the species itself, is a deep rooted understanding that pops out when you see it.

The Dark Energy is a correlative of the Causal state of meditation. It is the Darkness you feel when you go through an ego death, an ego transcendence. It is the loss you feel when a loved one dies. It is the ghost in the machine. The point I think that is critical is that we must see how our western cultural context (LL) enforces and strengthens an overreliance on the capacity of cognition, of intellect, of direct thought. This starts for us as we develop a linguistic self with a past present and future, goals, and roles that are expressly taught to us by parents and the culture at large. The point about the Dark energy is that it is not any of that. It is tied to your own bodily intelligence (instincts) without the true domination of your formal cognition. People are scared of the Dark, specifically their own shadow, the dark side of human nature, the present fact that your body will die. It will end eventually. This death fear, drives people to seek through their separate self sense. This seeking, this contracting is in part due to the fact that we will not own and integrate our own Dark energy. The energy that would take over if someone were suddenly to attack you and perhaps you kill them in self defense. The dark side of human nature is that at the end of the day we can go around killing people. In this light, you start to reconsider the perspective on oppression and state control over the history of our species. It suddenly becomes an aspect of our own unfolding being which has been there in the past two impose control and inhibit the "kill it" instinct, that is so necessarily embedded in our very body.

This is the point, you can only grasp what the Dark energy of your own being is by relaxing your focus. No amount of cognitive, or intellectual seeking or conceptualization gets at your Dark energy. It is your body, it is your mortality, it is your instincts, your sexual urges, the sort of things that society HAS TO repress in order to gaurantee a level of society for the WHOLE. However, the search for spirituality and peace might eventually lead to the realization of your Dark energy, of the necessary component to the lightness of your being. Life and consciousness can and is indeed lightness, pure bliss, ect. But it is also death, mortality, instinct, pure brute organismic awareness without the interplay of your cognitive thought stream. The cognitive thought stream is where the EGO hides, so you cant see the part of yourself that is your Dark energy, it is the part of your energy that consciousness cannot see by default. It is a feeling, an emotion, an instinct, an urge. It lies beneath a threshold. The part that is key, is that this part of your being is almost definitely repressed. 90 percent totally came up with this number on my own of the people growing up in the west will have been subjected to repression for their bodily instincts and sexual energies. This is just part of the modern west. A truly integral practice has to own up to this. Recognize that Consciousness is Light, your Body is Dark. Consciousness penetrates and is without density, your Body receives and is a dense organic being, with a finite amount of time on this earth. This penetration and reception is another way to grasp the difference. I think consciousness is akin to the subtle, your body akin to the causal. Nondual is the integration of your full being, Conscious and Vital. To reach the point of recognizing your own Dark energy is to allow your conscious grasping to relax for a moment, while you go back and lift the societal repression of your body and instincts. 

Does any of that help, or make clear what im talking about?: