I'M NO INTELLECTUAL, BUT...

 If I were I could probably explain to others what Ken is talking about...and right now I'm thinking, "Is this Ken???" Or did I miss a piece of information?  Anyway, I'm saying to myself as I read, "My god, he's pulled it all together.  It makes such good sense."

I might not think this so easily, without torturing my brain, that is, except for the fact that while discharging emotion on a memory, probably in 2009, I happened to suddenly become aware of the walls of the room, of the wood, of the glass, of the metal, and a thought sprang into my mind accompanied by a surge of emotion and the thought was, "My god, matter is sacred."  I cried hard on that thought and tthen grieved that it had taken me so long to realize that.  I felt remorse...and discharged that.

What interests me right now is the possibility that we all knew that it was sacred, at birth, wordlessly, of course.  And it is experiencing emotion fully which we did as infants, that allows us to know this.  Once we can no longer access our deep emotion, we lose this awareness.  So, I'm also asking myself, why does meditation allow it to emerge?

Whatever....experiencing something is one thing; "using" the awareness is another.  I don't think I've fully used the awareness...and that's a long story.  Some of it must be the fact that I have no people around me with whom I can pursue this.

Well, must stop.  Must return and complete reading.