Rita Carbon

The moment of creative urgency

In Kabbalah teachings, there is a state of evolution of the creature (state four - Malchut), when the creature is not satisfied anymore with its function of receiving pleasure from the Creator. At this stage the creature generates a screen (Masach) that allows to... Read More

Who am I?

WHO AM I?... I don't really know.... Probably, the closest description will be Humpty Dumpty. But without all the king's horses and all the king's men.... I had a lot of great falls lately. One of them is losing my job at Boeing. Just after filing applications for four... Read More

Jhana States And Multiple Personality Disorder

I practice meditation on a regular basis and have managed to achieve some powerful jhana states. They come quite easily lately, and start with some luminosity glow which spreads from inside and diminishes my sensory perception to a level of deep peace and depersonalization.... Read More

Dark Shadow

This is something that came to me after my meditation this morning. I put it out on Twitter, part by part, until I realized that it's a poem. I gave it a name:... DARK SHADOW... Even in tonglen... I cannot escape my Shadow.... Whenever the bliss hits,... The darkness comes next....... Read More

How does tonglen work?

I thought that my tonglen meditation would bring peace and understanding, when I was doing it for a woman who misunderstood me on a fasting web site. Instead, after I posted my notes about it, I was kicked out of the support group, my account was deleted, and she sent me some very... Read More

Tonglen Experience

I have just had some amazing experience during my tonglen meditation.... Lately, I joined a fasting network group. I do regular water fasts, and when I found a group of people on the Internet who did it together, I decided to make a three-day group water fast with them. Since I... Read More