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Who am I?
Posted May 10th, 2010 by Rita Carbon
WHO AM I?
I don't really know.
Probably, the closest description will be Humpty Dumpty. But without all the king's horses and all the king's men.
I had a lot of great falls lately. One of them is losing my job at Boeing. Just after filing applications for four patents and receiving an award for the new break-though technology…
I don't really know.
Probably, the closest description will be Humpty Dumpty. But without all the king's horses and all the king's men.
I had a lot of great falls lately. One of them is losing my job at Boeing. Just after filing applications for four patents and receiving an award for the new break-though technology…
And nobody – NOBODY! - is interested in putting neither me nor my work back together again. Which is actually not so bad. I'll have to do it by my own hand then. Maybe, it's the only way to do it...
But... Is it even possible? So far, I'm seeing multiple fragments of my self, scattered all over the place: jobless physicist, unpublished novelist, unproduced screenwriter, aspiring filmmaker… It's not going to be an easy job to find all of them... Without all the pretty horses. To say nothing of the handsome men...
Anyway, I am creating my web site (ritacarbon.com) - a home for Rita Carbon who is lost and scattered in the dust of the present-day economy. Hope that the king’s men on their pretty horses will eventually find me there and… What then? Even they can’t put Humpty Dumpty together again.
Look - here is my HEART, it's still alive and beating, though all covered in dirt. Somebody stepped on it lately. Like into a pile of horseshit. Probably, a handsome king's man...
Who is Rita Carbon? And who is... John Galt?
There is only one way to find out -- by direct and honest observation. I'll try to do it by revealing the layers of my ego, defined by my various social activities. And then by peeling them off, as from an onion.
But... Is it even possible? So far, I'm seeing multiple fragments of my self, scattered all over the place: jobless physicist, unpublished novelist, unproduced screenwriter, aspiring filmmaker… It's not going to be an easy job to find all of them... Without all the pretty horses. To say nothing of the handsome men...
Anyway, I am creating my web site (ritacarbon.com) - a home for Rita Carbon who is lost and scattered in the dust of the present-day economy. Hope that the king’s men on their pretty horses will eventually find me there and… What then? Even they can’t put Humpty Dumpty together again.
Look - here is my HEART, it's still alive and beating, though all covered in dirt. Somebody stepped on it lately. Like into a pile of horseshit. Probably, a handsome king's man...
Who is Rita Carbon? And who is... John Galt?
There is only one way to find out -- by direct and honest observation. I'll try to do it by revealing the layers of my ego, defined by my various social activities. And then by peeling them off, as from an onion.
But what if there is nothing hiding there? Only tears that I try hold in my itchy eyes...
Then, I’ll have to accept it: I am nothing. No-thing. No one…
No One is perfect.
No One lives forever.
No One knows everything.
No One has it all.
I am No One...
No One lives forever.
No One knows everything.
No One has it all.
I am No One...
That's what comes out after all my inegration process (or was it my integral practice?) Scarry, but true..
Rita
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I Am No One too...
Posted May 12th, 2010 by Stacie Hardison--
I am sorry that you lost your job. Please don't give up. We need you. Maybe it is trite to say but maybe something brighter lies around the bend for you. The sun will rise again for you in due time.
I for certain can say to you at the end of my own road lately that I am holding you in Spirit and in unity and can say "I Am No One too..."
Blessings and luck along your journey sweet lady!
You are sooooo loved,
Windancer
XOXOXOXO
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finely said
Posted May 10th, 2010 by Ambo SunoFinely said, Rita. May the force, and background quiet, be with you in this process and time. And us all, eh.