The bugs are starting to appear

Hi Roshana - I hope someone else will respond to you with wisdom. I sometimes wonder similarly. I won't speak from integral, but for comraderie sake, I'll say that this is what goes on with me.

If something bites me, like no-see-um mosquitos in the brush, I let reflex mode have it's way - smack, smack, slap, curse, press and shake.

When bigger mosquitos make it around my home screens, I'll wait and counterattack when they bite or limitedly hunt them down.

If I get momentarily freaked out by a compactly built spider racing into my visual field, I'll stomp it instantaneously or slam it with the side of my fist - this is partly reflex and partly adrenalin mediated fear and aggressive intention.

Three days ago I was startled by a daddy long legs in my kitchen - I had a moment for it to settle into a milder category of response and I quickly placed a cup over it, slid the empty tea-box cardboard over the lid and transferred to outside.

Regarding moths, unless they startle me into freakness, I can try to gather them into a loose hand without injuring them and release them outside.

Rarely, at work, I'll be surprised and grossed out by a small cockroach skittering across the broad expanse of shiny linoleum. Health Centers, it seems basic to me, should not have cockroaches. I try not to overthink it and just put my foot down, so to speak.

I feel a little bit informed by the Jain attitude of preventing pests from causing severe reaction, though my tendencies can be quite aggressive. So when I start seeing ants I try to clean up more. I investigate a little. When it appears that they insistently want in, maybe for water or other primitive instincts of the hive, I try to deter them where they are entering. I have found that liberal bleach sloshing along my entry threshold on the outside works well. When they are on the counter I keep sponging them and rinsing them down the drain often, hoping to throw off the scent. I usually don't bemoan their deaths or allow myself much guilt.

Occasionally, I find myself later apologizing, praying, or trying to do something like bless the situation, especially where my sensibilities have been primitively shocked.

Obviously, Roshana, this is me in my reactions and idiosyncratic choices and tactics - kosmic addresses of state and apparently stage in those moments.

You are maybe wondering the best way to handle these circumstances, considering the true, the beautiful and the good. My guess and bias is that wherever you are with it is OK, and you will probably become more refined - that will be approaching integral.

I hope my response is not aversively primitive and is even OK. Peace.