Letting Life Go

When I say letting life go, think about it in a positive way. no not death, I mean not to control. I Am really learning a lot from this site, loving the Integral teachings. The lines and such. I love the meditations. Yet this blog is to speak of the 8-10 findings.

I found a lot about myself, not that I don't know a lot of me, sure I do, the outside of me is easy but, learning the inside of me, now that can be a chore. As Pisces, highly intuitive, I fight between fantasy & reality. I live for a world others could never imagine. Oh others have stated, they see a place as I do in there minds, and that's great. The difference, I see those places and beyond, yet I feel them. I feel those places and beyond, as they can only see them.

I Am of Pisces which feels emotions from you and can read them quite well but, my own, ouch, can be painful, overbearing, so joyful that I cannot stop tears of fear, disappointment, love, ecstasy, fantasy, reality, sensitivity, sensuality, & sexuality from exploding down my face.

Most of my meditations render into uncontrollable gut punching, deflating, pulsing, tears of great overwhelming joy of the love I feel from the Universe, that answers overflow me with such abundance. I cannot help what feels so right, nor do I want it to stop.

My latest findings was to stop at controlling life. Live my life but, stop trying to guide it, turn it, move it. Stop trying to stop bad from coming, good from coming in. My life has always guided me but, during such, I must, deep within my mind, somehow try to control it without knowing.

What I mean is, no matter what I see coming, I can try to curb it, to stop it, to change it but, in the end, it will have happened no matter how, what, where, when, if, why, so on, and so on I tried to do. It happens as it unfolds and I needed to accept it as it is, Life experienced.

I feel by watching life unfold, I will experience life so much more, even though I have had and still have a charmed and filled life. I feel this will do me well. I thought to share.