Samuel Tornqvist

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About Me

Swede, born in april 1976. Currently residing in Barcelona, Spain with my lovely woman. I am a musician. (I play piano and sing) www.myspace.com/samueltornqvist. I am a "five" in the Eneagram, a stingy, opinionated thinker and inventor.

I graduated from Naropa University in Boulder CO in 2002. I have always had a fascination for what the world really is. What is the truth of it all? So, people like Ken Wilber, A. H. Almaas, David Deida, Chögyam Trunpa Rinpoche, and others grabbed my attention early on.

I don't know who I am, I am confused. But I will describe my some patterns I am aware of. But they are probably just old knowledge by the time I write this. At least I hope so. being true to the knowledge of now is what interests me the most.

My not so good habits that I am aware of are that I over-think. I know too much and so I get confused in my own knowledge. I seem to have so many perspectives that I can’t decide sometimes. I protect myself with my arrogance and knowledge. I get annoyed with superficial ideas and life-styles. I am frustrated, because I feel I am quite alone in the knowledge/interest in life that I have. I get impressed by few and have a tendency to want to preach my ideas and not listen so well to others.

My better habits are that I am very perceptive, and at times a very good listener. I care deeply about anyone who wants to work deeply and I encourage anyone’s self-work as much as I can. At good moments I am a leader and influence many and know about many things that can help others. When I have a good direction I am disciplined and a hard worker. I am very creative and I normally don’t have a problem making a fool out myself. I can see humor and lightness in situations. I have many talents and skills. I have seen a lot of the world and I have quite an open mind and many perspectives to life and situations. I am not afraid to say what I feel and think.

Lately, I have come to know I am much more a masculine person than I thought before. I value that I am aware of my feminine side but it is in silence and nothingness where I feel most at home. Right now I would like to be around men more.

I I feel frustrated without a direct community here in Barcelona and have a hard time doing anything that makes much sense for me. A lot of my jobs feel like a waste of time. Bringing me some money, yes but not exactly fulfilling. I wonder if there is any spiritual interest here where I live.

I do think all this is also just me complaining, but not only. I believe that only taking myself as these ideas, is limited. But I often do just that.

Education

B.A Naropa Univeristy in Boulder CO (music and movement)

Career

I am trying to find out... But otherwise I am a musician and a teacher in piano and voice.

To keep asking what the meaning of life is. An endless string of answers everyday. There is always more.

Hobbies and Interests

I just joined a Diamond Approach Group in Italy, I am trying to start a men's group here in Barcelona (see blog) and also finding out what the deeper meaning really is. I am a little bit in the middle, having a sense of no direction. Perhaps a good thing? I love music but have recently lost the idea why I am doing it.